I filmed Amber changing Mattie's diaper and she filmed me changing Sophie's last night. I tried to post it but I can't get my computer and the camera to communiate. That is the first diaper I have ever changed in my life. I have to say, it is not quite what I expected. I didn't picture quite that many tubes and chords to maneuver around!
We got to spend a lot of time with them last night. I checked on them again this morning, and they are both doing really well. No major improvements, but just a calm uneventful day...which is what they need. This morning, Sophie was sucking on a pacifier...which has to be difficult going around the tubes! Apparently she was sucking on them so much the nurse decided to try the pacifier and she went to town. Sophie also had her first bowel movement. Once again...sorry for details you might not want. It's funny what you get excited about that you never thought you would.
We are both growing tired of Amber being poked and prodded on and groups of doctors and students coming around, so we are looking forward to getting out of the hospital for that reason, but we are not ready at all to leave the girls here. There is something that just hangs in the bottom of your stomach when you can't take care of your own children. We ask that you keep praying for the girls to have calm days. For us, we really don't feel anxious as much as incompetent and helpless. Please pray that we will have patience and be able to get over some of the irrational guilt and sense of worthlessness. We know that a lot of people who go through this have felt the same things, but knowing that doesn't do much to take the feelings away. Also, we know there will be times of ups and downs as far as the girl's progress. Right now, we are thankful that it has mainly been ups. Pray that we will be able to handle the downs when they come as well.